Moving On Instead Of Moving Out
Jan. 14th, 2024 03:57 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
enchantedsnowforestI don't admit to being a very patient person. It's something God has to work with me on. This week, I was obsessed with the idea of moving out. So obsessed that in spite of me only have an income of close to $1,000, I went scouring the internet for rooms for rent. Padsplit.com accepted SSI recipients but I've heard on other forums that PadSplit is a complete nightmare. One girl changed rooms because her light wouldn't turn on. Lo and behold, the next room PadSplit gave her was worse. So I don't trust PadSplit's reviews. Everything on the internet mostly is scrubbed except for positive reviews on PadSplit which is fishy enough already.
Anyway, I was still determined to move out and try PadSplit anyway since they were the only rooms that accepted SSI recipients. But it really is kind of dumb. My mom still has her insurance with me on it because she legal guardianship over me. That means, her insurance plus Medicaid makes free healthcare for me. If I ever move out, I'm on my own as far as health care. That would be idiotic. Health care alone has the potential to ruin people's credit. Sometimes though, the idea of being all on my own intrigues me. The idea of no one telling me what to do is a lie because there will always be someone to tell me what to do. Whether it be my boss or a spouse or whatever. Anyway, I got to get moving out out of my head because it's going to eat away at me. I need to just play it safe and stay home. My mom is trying to build a trust fund for me to one day have the home I am in now. I need to stay home, learn how to take care of myself from my family and be thankful.
I really don't believe for a minute I would be happy moving out. I would have to pay $650 a month for a room, buy groceries plus save change for rides to work on the bus. That would be all my monthly SSI check right there. No spending money. No money to go to the movies. Nothing. It would be a horrible way to live. Plus, I wouldn't have free reign of the house. I would have to be holed up in a tiny room. It would be kind of bad. Wouldn't it?
Anyway, I was still determined to move out and try PadSplit anyway since they were the only rooms that accepted SSI recipients. But it really is kind of dumb. My mom still has her insurance with me on it because she legal guardianship over me. That means, her insurance plus Medicaid makes free healthcare for me. If I ever move out, I'm on my own as far as health care. That would be idiotic. Health care alone has the potential to ruin people's credit. Sometimes though, the idea of being all on my own intrigues me. The idea of no one telling me what to do is a lie because there will always be someone to tell me what to do. Whether it be my boss or a spouse or whatever. Anyway, I got to get moving out out of my head because it's going to eat away at me. I need to just play it safe and stay home. My mom is trying to build a trust fund for me to one day have the home I am in now. I need to stay home, learn how to take care of myself from my family and be thankful.
I really don't believe for a minute I would be happy moving out. I would have to pay $650 a month for a room, buy groceries plus save change for rides to work on the bus. That would be all my monthly SSI check right there. No spending money. No money to go to the movies. Nothing. It would be a horrible way to live. Plus, I wouldn't have free reign of the house. I would have to be holed up in a tiny room. It would be kind of bad. Wouldn't it?