Charisma Takes A Rest

 Come to me all ye that are heavy laden and I will give you rest. - Holy Bible

I am slowly being more drawn to the Catholic faith. I just can’t seem to get past the high and the lows where you have to be charismatic, emotional, crying and on and on. I’ve noticed a pattern in Pentecostal churches  The preacher preaches an emotional message, you weep and cry and yet there’s no repentance but for a moment. I’ve seen people speak in tongues yet ignore me. It’s been over 31 years. In Catholic Churches, people have ignored me too. Pretending I am invisible, no one says hello. Hallmark of a cult I used to think. However, because of the huge misunderstandings of the Catholic Church, I see that people cannot be open and welcoming like you see in some Protestant churches. You have to be secretive and guard the Holy Mother and Trinity. Not only that, I have some reservations. I don’t understand why Catholic Churches display skeletons as relics. I understand it is because Elijah came to life from touching bones but it seems like a huge, huge focus on the act of death. Now, that’s not to misunderstand the saints. The saints are alive. The saints have been transformed from this life to an eternal life. The Eucharist I see because Jesus said I am the Bread of Life. He said he who eats my flesh and drinks my blood will have eternal life. It becomes the body and blood of Jesus Christ! The Real Presence of Jesus is in the Eucharist. I long to fill my mouth with good things and I want to fill my mouth with Jesus with joy when I’m baptized in the Name of the Father and of the Son and of the Holy Spirit.

Anyway, I have my reservations. The authority of the Pope and the authority of Tradition. But other than that, the faith is drawing me closer and closer.