She’s Dying

My mom just told Grandma she doesn’t think she has much longer to live. She has had bronchial spasms ever since she has had COVID and it hasn’t gone away. The fever and sore throat is gone but the cough has lingered for well over a year. The doctors couldn’t find out anything wrong because the cough just keeps coming and going, off and on and it’s worse now. She went to an urgent care place where she was given steroids in her breathing machine but they only help her for five minutes. I’m so scared. I’m terrified. I love her so much it hurts. We had a rocky relationship because I was rebellious but I don’t WANT my Mom to die! 

I can’t share this with anyone. I can’t share it with my friends or my pastor right now. It is a burden I have to carry on my own. I’m so scared. God, I’m sorry I ever hurt her feelings. Please help me go through this.